Earlier this week I had made it an urgent task to write about this unfamiliar but buoyant sort of energy I was in for the past weeks or so. Quite contrary to how I have been feeling all throughout quarantine and for most of my adult life I guess, I finally feel like I’m heading towards the right direction.
By this I mean I feel like I have finally identified or am fixated on a specific goal or dream and I have never been this determined before. And no, I do not think I have it ALL figured out, but I guess I can say that I’ve gotten some parts figured out.
Today though, I feel as if there is this strange and heavy cloud over my head that’s blocking my view of the beautifully vast sky. Something so wide and immeasurable that despite not knowing what lies beyond it, gets you enraptured in all its mysteries. This is how I see life today, ever so full of surprises. I am not afraid of uncertainty like I used to. It empowers me now because I know in myself that with this drive, I can achieve anything.
But it’s not all rainbows and butterflies, like for instance today. I am sad. But not helplessly sad. It’s just this weird silence in my head as if the voices that has kept me motivated have gone on a day off. AND THAT IS OKAY.
We are bound to have days like this, but it’s important to keep in mind that nothing lasts. Tomorrow things could be different. And that’s it, that is part of how life is so mysterious. This is why I am excited. We cannot be sure that we will fail. We can never be sure on anything.
So I’m just gonna keep this short and simple. A little update to let everyone know how much I wish I could share this new found mindset to you all. I hope that this virtual hug I am about give is felt from all the other screens out there that gets to stumble upon this humble arrangement of words that wants to give out encouraging energy.
Nothing lasts. You get to choose which way you want to perceive that.